I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S THE RAIN OR PMS(TMI im sure)lol, But I was listening to Jaheim this morning *like duhh* that's a given, lol...Anyway.. My worst fear in the world is dying at a young age and leaving my son behind. I don't fear death because I know its inevitable, however, I cringe at the thought of my son being lost without me by his side. So ironically, this morning while I was getting ready for work, listening to my gazillion tracks I have on my iPod of Jaheim, EVERYWHERE I AM came on.....I WAS FLOORED!!!!! I've heard the songs plenty of times..but today it touched me in a way that is indescribable, when he sings this part...
If God is in the spirit world talking to my heart
Then for an angel I know it can be hard
You are my guardian and I know you're still playing your part
(I know you are) Just on the other side but always in my life
No need to just believe I know you're here with me
I'm reaching out my hand and to the promise land
to feel your presence when I need strength
This is all a mother wants her child to know..that they will always and forever be a part of them....JAHEIM YOUR MOTHER WOULD BE SO PROUD OF YOU..AS A SINGLE MOTHER..I KNOW ITS A STRUGGLE SOMETIMES, BUT JUST KNOWING THAT THE LOVE I HAVE FOR MY CHILD AND THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE I RECEIVE IN RETURN MAKES IT WORTH IT!! BY GOD'S GRACE I AM ABLE TO PROVIDE FOR HIM FINANCIALLY, BUT SOMETIMES IT IS HARD EMOTIONALLY.
The annointing on this song is SO evident....The emotions that are conveyed on this song are so pure and raw, I lost it this morning, and about to lose it again just thinking about it lol On that note I will end it here...thanks for allowing me to share my testimony and THANK YOU for confirming that the love you have for your mother is a love like no other!! KUDOS TO YOU!! GOD BLESS YOU!!